my favourite part about the sprinkler scene isn’t even that they’re talking again [for a split second] or that Jess is extremely hot when he’s wet, but that one of the only things out of his mouth when he addresses her is “you still gonna do the Harvard thing” followed by “good” with a little smile on his face because he knew how much she loved school and wanted to see her succeed.
He doesn’t go away, I still need him every time I feel like the world is falling around me. No matter how nonexistent he is in my mind or in my world in any way, physically or emotionally. I just still need him and that is so mind boggling and frustrating and painful. I just want him to hold me but I know he never will. But there is nothing in this world I need more in this moment. And it hurts so much to need that and know it will never be given to me. It hurts so much to know that I’m just going to ache this way and nothings ever going to change.
Looking for alaska The Hunger Games The Fault in Our Stars Shiver (the wolves of mercy falls) Harry Potter The Last Time We Say Goodbye The Awakening (the darkest powers)
